This is a blog where at the end of the day I, and a few others, talk about a certain subject matter that has interested us earlier that day. Who knows where that will lead!
Friday, January 10, 2014
Real
Going in circles.
The thought of the day is: Life cycles.
We all have life cycles. Routines that we get caught up in and that are difficult to get break. For instance take a drug addict. One of the reasons an addict is called an addict is because they try to quit their addiction, but generally go right back to it after a period of time and levels of stress in their life. Depending on the drug and the discipline of the person, they will do this two or three times before ridding their life of their demon. Cutting everything out of their life that previously led them back to it.
Also, we get caught up in these cycles because of how we where raised or trauma we experienced when we was younger. A young child raised around racism will most likely grow up to be a racist, same with someone who grew up around drugs is more likely to be an addict. But, I have found that the most character changing experiences have been linked to some sexual abuse.
I was very close to a young woman who was sexually abused as a child, and do to that she was very promiscuous. She wasnt able hold down a meaningful relationship and she would cheat on who she was with no matter how she strongly she felt for him.
I believe that due to the sexual abuse in her past, she was afraid and unfamiliar with commitment, confused about love, and insecure. Because of this, she developed a sexual addiction to cope with all her unwanted feelings.
After having child, a few change of locations, and failed relationships; she wanted to change for the better of her kid. But, no matter how hard she tryed, she couldn't get out of the routine of constant failure and sexual immorality; which fed deeper into her life cycle and sexual addiction. Feeling as though she wasn't good enough for a gentleman, she settle for being used by men. These where ingredients for an unhealthy relationship. Which eventually she used to have a sense of control of her life because she could predict the outcome of the relationship.
She was my dear friend who's life cycles and demons conquered and destroyed our friendship. To this day I keep her in my prayers and hope the best for her and her child. Can you pinpoint your life cycles and change them for the better?
-Michael